I think my brain is melting.
No, seriously. I think it’s atrophying from lack of use. At least, lack of use of the muscles of writing and criticism and turning my thought vomit into actual words that make sense to others and convey at least a hint of what I’m trying to say. I used to be the ultimate expert in churning out 10-12 page essays of BS disguised as thoughtful literary criticism – I was an English major, after all. I used to be able to sit down at my laptop at midnight with a liter of Mountain Dew and a couple of bags of popcorn and have a workable paper ready the next morning by eight a.m. Now it feels like I can barely cough up any of the words that are swimming around in my head. I’ve got about a dozen partially-written book reviews I keep meaning to post on this shiny new blog, but I can’t make any of them say anything close to what I want them to do. I can’t seem to get much beyond the “Durr…this book good, me like” stage. And these are just simple, piddly little book reviews! I feel like screaming.
Sorry. Just needed to vent. Maybe someday soon – like in a couple of years – I’ll post some of the reviews I’ve got waiting in the wings. I just have to wait and see if my brain is planning on showing up to work again.
Posted on February 18, 2010, in Blog Notes. Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.
I’ve given you a One Lovely Blog Award – today on my blog.
Oh, Kristi! You said it! Absolutely! Me too! We should talk! I am trying to blog too as a way to encourage myself to get writing again! Good luck and good writing!
So that’s why I haven’t been in the writing zone lately. I forgot all about the keys to productivity — popcorn and Mountain Dew.
Actually, I’d really rather not revisit the era of grueling college all-nighters. But I might really try popcorn and M.D. one of these nights. Thank you, Kristi!